I know the fucking answer. I really do. There's this really cute, really sweet, really bright girl who is very obviously interested in me without the use of chemical persuasion. I like her, she likes me, she's already cool with my friends, I'm already cool with her friends and even her family. Fuck, her older brother was a slight friend/good acquaintance of mine in college. But. I'm also chasing (and not getting) a bitchy, super-hot, will-spend-my-money-like-a-whore chick that I really just want to fucking break in half. The first girl is really cute. Her older brother is an ATF agent, but I don't think I'm terribly afraid he'll shoot me. He did seem a little cold the last time I hung out with them, though, so I think he knows his sister is interested. What the fuck is wrong with me? Why can't I just be happy that a GREAT girl digs me, and dig her as much as I (think I) want to?